Erikarogers’s Weblog

I feel very grateful today and more peaceful than I have in months. Thank you…

With the experience and blessing of my friend, I have learned much about communicating…especially since talking is very limited.

I am fascinated with learning a new language- a new way to communicate – such a beautiful expression…very excited about learning… and I am amazed at how many words we actually use in normal conversation and how much can be expressed without the use of any words…

Going to Lexington to apartment hunt with a friend and am considering a move as well. Depends on a few current circumstances…but the more I consider it..the more advantages and positives I seem to come up with…hmmm. Will know more after the weekend I suppose and I don’t have to decide anything right at the moment. I am really attempting to make some good decisions for myself and learning to be true to me…

Until the past year and a half, I dated men almost exclusively- (though some would say many of them resembled womyn in some ways lol)

Now- I have absolutely no romantic interest in males at all and I really am convinced- probably never will again. Why would I wait so long to realize the truth and to miss out on the most amazing beautiful experience evah!

Now dating of course isn’t a priority of mine- but I am mystified at the legnth of time it took me to realize my truth and I am happy now to finally be able to live my truth- out – unafraid and totally happy about who I am in that area!

Are the best friends to have. Very few people have someone they could lean on in the early morning hours for support and encouragement. I am extremely grateful and learning a lot about the errors I have had in my perceptions.  I am learning much about being someone’s friend and having a friend..Life is full of pleasant surprizes and new opportunities and experiences….

I choose to live outside the box– nothing that really is meaningful in my life has ever fit within the confines of any box. I choose today to live free and happy and am able to create a new limitless experience where the past does not dictate the present and where dreams really do come true..sometimes I have learned that old dreams must die to make room for new ones and that the cocoon gives birth to butterflies….ah I am happy to be me and happy that I know that I am worth it and worthy and grateful – it is by “dying” that one awakens to eternal LIGHT…Yay for living in the light!

Hope everyone in wordpress land has a very good weekend…I know I hope to…..Peace OUt…..

Has to be the person I hear…while on lunch- at least I dodged that bullet with some type of success……. and at least I was aware that there is nothing left there when that person is in the vicinity- that is a nice thing to be aware of and in itself brings about comfort. That chapter of my life is completely closed and over- time to write a new book

I am really hoping that tonight is filled with wonderful magical experiences and solid safe friendships—– very scared about what the day and evening hold…I just remember to breathe…..that in itself has to be enough for the moment

My stomach is in complete knots and no solution seems to be in sight…might have to lose it all to gain anything….

I suppose that with the right company any “8 o’clock” can be an amazing experience and the fact that “smoking” is permitted only adds to the ambiance and attractiveness of so called place….

In all reality it is taking everything I have got in me to go to any “8 o’clock” or any other meeting for that matter……

Just made very aware that I made the right choice last night….sometimes peoples voices or just the sound of their laughter is enough to make one- okay me- sick to my stomach…..wheeeeeeeee