I really am working on letting go of some things and my desire to not allow the past to dictate the present and the future is more than it has been in quite some time.

I look forward to healthy loving relationships and new ways of communicating. My mind at times is completely relentless and the enemy..I pray and I do believe God hears…..I continue to do my best acting in a loving manner..I am completely selfish way to often and that leaves me exhausted and frustrated…time to get outta me…and into some action…

Whheeeeeeeeee…hope this is a great weekend. I believe it can and will be…yay!

Well a not so good morning is getting better thanks to a great attitude and the beautiful fluffy snowflakes falling…it is the simple things that make me happy:) I am grateful!

And I am looking forward to a nice warm evening inside…and hoping we get a work “snow day ” tomorrow…

So- I am extremely tired and really really hoping to do absolutely nothing tonight. I have put calls in and if I had bus fare would consider actually making it to a “meeting” and perhaps I will regardless of bus fare. All I know is that I need sleep and I am exhausted in all aspects.

Now what to do after work…many things I need to do and some business I need to take care of…. how much will I actually get done and will I inuitively know how to handle some situations. Should be interesting or not so interesting..either way- I am “way” happy and that is awesome!

I hope “this” whatever “this” is- is real…I am going to choose to believe that it is…it is real for me and that is all I can be absolutely sure of.  I do know that I am willing to work hard to value and not throw away the opportunity.

I feel very grateful today and more peaceful than I have in months. Thank you…

With the experience and blessing of my friend, I have learned much about communicating…especially since talking is very limited.

I am fascinated with learning a new language- a new way to communicate – such a beautiful expression…very excited about learning… and I am amazed at how many words we actually use in normal conversation and how much can be expressed without the use of any words…

Going to Lexington to apartment hunt with a friend and am considering a move as well. Depends on a few current circumstances…but the more I consider it..the more advantages and positives I seem to come up with…hmmm. Will know more after the weekend I suppose and I don’t have to decide anything right at the moment. I am really attempting to make some good decisions for myself and learning to be true to me…

Until the past year and a half, I dated men almost exclusively- (though some would say many of them resembled womyn in some ways lol)

Now- I have absolutely no romantic interest in males at all and I really am convinced- probably never will again. Why would I wait so long to realize the truth and to miss out on the most amazing beautiful experience evah!

Now dating of course isn’t a priority of mine- but I am mystified at the legnth of time it took me to realize my truth and I am happy now to finally be able to live my truth- out – unafraid and totally happy about who I am in that area!

Are the best friends to have. Very few people have someone they could lean on in the early morning hours for support and encouragement. I am extremely grateful and learning a lot about the errors I have had in my perceptions.  I am learning much about being someone’s friend and having a friend..Life is full of pleasant surprizes and new opportunities and experiences….